People will let you down.

People will let you down. That is exactly what happened to me today. People who I have been counting on for 10 months decided that I was too complex to continue interacting with. I have trust issues and don't trust people easily but I really trusted this group of people. They seemed like they always cared about me and said they did but today when I was expecting it the least they decided to let me know that I can only see them for another month and then I will have to find another place. I cried and I cried because its so hard to realize that you truly are alone in this world. That just whenever people decide they can drop you and you are alone. They say its for my best but really how is telling someone you are too complex really helping them. I wish I was happy all the time, I wish I had all the answers and I wish I was perfect. I wish I had all the answers to lifes questions but I don't. I don't know who I am anymore. I feel totally alone in this world. People tell me I am smart, I am a great person but if I am then why I am constantly alone?  Why have I not found someone to love me for who I am? Why when I need people the most they are never there? I cry alone in my bedroom so often lately. I cry but the next day I walk out into the real world with a smile on my face and try my hardest to face the days struggles. I try my hardest to be normal. I try to do what I think is right. I try but somehow I am always falling short. I am falling short in life. I want to be successful. I want people to want to be around me. People tell me how talented I am, they tell me how compassionate and great I am but if I am all those things why is my life going in circles and I can never find the way out? I want to have a life that is worth living. I want a life that I can be happy and love someone, I want a family, I want to not be alone all the time. How do I find that love that I am looking for? I can a person be breaking inside and nobody cares? Please if you are reading my posts please leave comments. Thanks.