Today

Yesterday was a hard day. The people who I counted on the most let me down. I know maybe its for the best but it really doesn't feel like it. It just feels like another person decided I was too much to handle. They always say sleep on it and you will feel better. I don't. I still hurts as much as it did yesterday. There is a hole in my heart. It seems like the closer I get to people the more I get let down. Right in this moment I don't know how I feel. I feel a mix of emotions swirling around inside I me. I ate some breakfast even though I didn't want to. I knew if I didn't eat I would probably feel worse. I have test day in school. I haven't really been in the mood for much studying. I have studied and I am sure I will do ok. It just seems hard. Life seems hard right now. I feel like my heart is being jerked around. They say they care and want whats best but how can this be whats best? They say I can come back when I am better. Then that means I probably will never go back because I don't think I will ever be 100% better. I don't think that is possible. Anyway, today I feel alone again. I feel this everyday and don't know how to get it to go away.