Where did I go?

There is no hope for me left in this world. I have no motivation to do anything. I feel sick. I don't want to eat and I just want to sleep. There still is a part of me that is trying to live but its so hard right now. Its so hard trying to live without friends. I have myself and me. I don't know anymore. I don't even want to watch a netflix movie. I don't really want to go to work tomorrow but I better because if I don't then I don't have money. I need money. I need to feel better too. Do I just go take some medicine that will make me sleep tonight and forget about trying to accomplish anything tonight? I feel so depressed. Life is not fun anymore and life just has no meaning. I really can't think to work, I really should be canceling tomorrow and going to school and getting some homework done. Really, I should try and find someone to take over my shift for me. I don't feel well and its just not worth it. Everything in my life feels hard right now. I just feel like I am going downhill. I don't know anymore. I don't know what life is about and how I am suppossed to feel about it. I did just about nothing today. What is happening to me? Why do I feel so alone and that I have nobody to talk to? This is a feeling I know all to well. Alone, in the dark wondering if anyone loves me, wondering if I can continue to fight this internal battle. Everyday is a fight, I feel like I am just going though the motions of life. I feel like I need a miracle to happen to get my life back. Where did I go? What happened to me? Why do I feel so lost in this world? I didn't enjoy anypart of today. I just slept. I feel so much stress because I feel that doing school is really hard right now. I don't have anyone to talk to about anything. That is life and someday maybe the light will shine on my part of the world. Maybe someday I will be a better person and I will figure out who I am.