Friendship

Do you ever wonder how someone else feels when you walk past them in the grocery store, on campus, or standing close to them in the elevator?  As humans we are supposed to feel emotions and care about each other but society keeps us so busy that rarely do we ever think about life through someone elses eyes. Instead we honk the horn at somebody if they don't move fast enough at a green light, or we think someone is stupid if they can't multi-task. Everyday is a struggle and if you say its not you probably are lying to yourself. Do you ever wonder how often we lie to ourselves and tell ourselves we are ok? We are programmed to tell people we are ok, fine, or good. Its not ok to be depressed or sad but yet its a normal human reaction and feeling. Why can't society allow people to express how they honestly feel without judgement? I am not saying everybody is bad and I won't say everybody is good. I am sure a large percentage of the human population has compassion and does care. Whats hard for me is when I am sad or feel lonely, I feel that is not ok so I don't tell anyone not even the friends who told me I could text them whenever. You ask, what am I afraid of? I am afraid of losing them as friends. I know I am not alone in this feeling because how is it possible to always be ok, good, or fine? Facebook gives people a false belief that they have friends. Facebook allows you to think you have 100, 300, or even 500 friends but in reality, you do not have that many friends. I think that the word friend get used way to often and nobody actually knows how to be a friend. What do friends do that other people don't? I honestly cannot answer that because I am not sure I have had a true friend long enough to honestly tell you what a true friend does. I think the closest I have come to understanding true friendship is through my therapist. That may seem weird or not allowed but through talking to my therapist I realize that so many people just take up space in my life or even worse hurt me. I know a therapist gets paid to talk and listen to clients but there is something about mine that is different. I can tell she cares about me and my life. She is more than a person on a couch listening to me talk, she honestly cares if I live or die. That one person is the only thing keeping me alive. So I ask you to think who you will talk to today and really listen to what they need to say, encourage them to say how they really feel and not to hide their feelings. Through hiding our feelings we die.